About 2 years ago I was at a cross roads and honestly as lost as I have ever been. After 3 years as a stay at home mum with baby number four, I was to put it gently LOOSING IT! I had a career prior to that, one that I thought I enjoyed while I did it but in deciding to put my family first I realised that what I enjoyed was accomplishing goals. The job paid the bills and the satisfaction came from hitting targets, meeting deadlines, preforming above expectations.
Now anyone who has ever spent time at home with small children will know that as wonderful and amazing as the time is, no one pats you on the back for having dinner done "on time", there is never a congratulatory email for all laundry being completed, and never a bonus for tear and tantrum free day! I was lost.
My one escape was fitness. I went back taking gym classes, ballet and I even ran a little. Do you know what I found?? I felt amazing! For the first time in years I had a healthy focus outside of my wonderful family that made me feel as good, no even better than all those work place accomplishments had.
When the time then came for me to go back to work, I didn't want to return to what had been my career, so I took an "easy" part-time job, and hated it. On one particularly rough day, in the middle of a hectic dash between school runs and a child's extra curricular activity, I was happily ranting away to myself about how it was awful to have to go to work, day after day, after day.....when my son interrupted with the very matter of fact (and truly terrifying) statement " Mum you have at least 30 more years to work. Why don't you try doing something you enjoy?"
Now I do not doubt that this statement was motivated by his desire not to listen to me complain for the next 30 years and not for my personal wellbeing, but he did me a huge favour, once I got over the initial shock!
It took me time to figure out what would work, how to juggle the training I needed with family life and bills and I would be a complete liar if I said that this journey has not left me exhausted, terrified and at times second guessing my every instinct. But I did it! I am now teaching classes, working with clients and getting to positively impact peoples health and happiness, and I even earn a little money.
It is true what they say, if you love your job you will never work a day in your life! I made this choice for me, and I am so glad I did because 30 more years doesn't seems bad at all now!
Jessica Keniston is a mother of 4, former dancer and lover of fitness who has turned her passion into a career. Read favourite tips, recipes and workout advice here, and sympathise with the daily motherhood struggles!